So many things..

I have so many things to tell. Hmm.. Where should I start..

1. Went to Miri last weekend with 6 of my best buddies from high school to celebrate Laila and Topeq. Few unexpected incidents happened but I guess I don't have the right to tell it here. But all in all, the whole trip was fun. I still remember back then when the 8 of us used to talk about marriage stuffs, whom, how, when and where.. When it comes to Laila, we were wondering how are we going to attend her wedding since definitely it's going to be held in Sarawak. At that time, there's no Air Asia and it never cross our mind that we can afford to go. When Laila asked each of us to promise that we'll make it to her wedding by hook or by crook, I thought the 'promise' will only be another promise. But today, we finally sealed the promise that we made 11 years ago. The 5 of us, Ina, Effa, Fazz, Sakinah and me (Nurul can't make it last minute and Mimi is sooo special case) sneaked out from our busy daily life and went to Miri to witness the celebration of Laila and Topeq. To me it was an unforgettable memory since after we left high school, it's not easy for us to spend time together like we used to. Each of us has our own life with husbands and kids, works and etc. We do sometimes hang out to celebrate birthdays but to me this time it's different. Since Laila was the last one among us to get married, I considered this moment as the closure for one cycle in our friendship life and the beginning for the next one. There were times that we miscommunicate and lead to nasty fight but I do hope each of us, Ina, Laila, Fazz, Nurul, Effa, Jaja, Sakinah and Mimi will never forget the 15 years of friendship that we built together. Each of us is not perfect. But the best thing is we have each other that can counter the imperfection. Cherish all the moments we had together. The laughs, the tears, the joy and happiness that make our friendship stronger each year. I really hope we can grow old together and 30 years from now, when the world forget about our existence, we can still laugh and cry together. Learn to accept each other. Forgive and forget. That's what friends are for. I love u girls a lot. No matter what happen, I'll stick with u girls..
2. Eizwan turned 7 months last Sunday. Happy Birthday my boy.. Daddy and Mommy love u soooo much!! He now can 'mengesot' like a soldier. He has this funny way of getting to sleep. He can also sit by himself. My little hero..
3. In 3 days time I'll be seeing my love, my sweetheart and my soul.. Ezzy Ismail.. I miss him so much.. Only Allah knows.. ;) In the mean time, I need to do some shopping. Not for me. It's for him. Went to Giant with my dad, mom, adik and Eizwan just now to get some 'barang dapur', all kinds of spices, kicap kipas udang and etc. Can't wait.. Miss u babe!
4. Since everyone is talking about the latest movie Twilight, I feel obligated to say something about it. Went to watch it with my loved ones.. Not with Ezzy but with my mother and my youngest sister! Haha. Tak tau nak rasa apa actually.. But overall, it's a movie that I'm thinking of watching it more than once. But, I do think the movie is not for my age. Edward Cullen is so kiddy. So definitely I cannot relate myself to the romance part. :( I guess I need to create my own romance in Tokyo.. Ihiks!
   

Happy..

It's been awhile since I updated my blog.. Alhamdulillah, aku dah selamat ada kat Shah Alam, Selangor, Malaysia.. Luckily, no stupid incident happen during my journey home. Few days after I happily enjoying my time with Eizwan, something unexpected happened. At first I was speechless, then I know I had to do something this time. I'm just tired. I had enough. But this time I feel like it's better for me to keep this story to myself. So I won't be telling any details here. I don't want the 'batu api' to happily make his/her own stupid assumption again and instead of keeping the assumption to him/herself, he/she used it to bad mouth about me. I'd rather not knowing who is this 'batu api' coz if I know, I'll make sure he/she tastes a piece of my Taekwondo side kick. Biar smpai terpusing kepala smpai mulut yg mcm haram jadah tu berdarah. Baru bole stop agaknya. Takde lg mangsa lepas ni. I really wish he/she is not one of my friends or somebody near to me. If not, I might have to be extra careful next time. Nanti habis belakang aku rabak ditoreh kata-kata dari mulut sang durjana yg tajam mengalahkan pisau. Atau mungkin aku ditikam sewaktu tidur kerana selimutku dipenuhi gunting2 yg tajam yg sentiasa bersedia menikamku apabila ku lelapkan mata. Hmm.. Terasa? Bagus.. Aku sebenarnya penat melayan kanak-kanak yg masih tak berhenti-henti merumitkan hidupku. Grow up please..

Anyway, right now Eizwan is sleeping right next to me.. Now I can kiss and hug him anytime I want.. :) Luckily when he first saw me at the airport he didn't cry or reject me like he used to do with other strangers. My mom is right. A child will always knows his mother. Last 2 days, went to see Hana's baby, A'mar.. Sweet je.. Hana is going to be a cool mom. A'mar nangis pun muka dia relax tenang je. Masa aku dulu, dah menggelabah. Satu rumah aku panggil tanya nak buat apa ni. Hehe. I bought A'mar a night jumper. Hopefully it fits. Okla.. Got to go.. Nak call the other baby.. ;)

Tuakah?

Today for the first time in my 28 years of life, I have to wear specs to watch tv. Before this, I only have trouble reading the subtitles (for French movies laa..), but now I can't even see the faces. Is it because of my hours in front of the pc or simply because aging finally knocking on my door?? Damn.. Not a good sign. Note to myself, eat more vege.

My head is so fully occupied right now. I can't even find a good topic to write in this blog. So I'm just going to bla bla bla.. Eizwan is having his first fever. Cian dia.. It's ok. Mommy is coming home in 2 weeks time. Yeay! But before that I have to go through the miserable part first. Aiyak! Malas ni.. It's ok it's alright, come on TF fight fight fight. Heh heh. Delay gratification.

Cop! I totally forgot that I promise to put up the 2nd article but I'll do it later eh? Kemalasan sedang melanda jiwa beta tahap maksima. ;) How do u babes find the 1st article? Is it worth reading? I know there's a lot of books on marriage and relationship out there, but then I don't think u babes would wanna spent on those books la kan. ;) So, just read these 2 articles. Oh yeah.. The part that the writer mention about decreasing interest in your spouse after few years of marriage tu, we learned it in psychology and it's actually have something to do with our hormones. Apa tah nama dia. Basically this hormone (the one giving us the 'butterfly in the stomach' effect) would eventually decrease after few years of relationship. Usually couples are advised to do something interesting after 3 years. Maybe they could try to have another child, go for a romantic trip and etc. By doing this, it is said that we can increase, not much, the hormones hence giving back the sparks to our relationship. ;)

Ok la for now.. Tata..

p/s Apakah nama hormon yang disebutkan di atas?

I feel good!

Do u babes know the NTV7's theme song, "I Feel Good"? Let's sing together now! I feel good! Tarararara.. Hehe. Finally! I've submitted my last assignment last Thursday. Woohoooo! One more time! I feel good.. Tararara.. Sorry I only know that part.. :)

It's been a week since my last entry. First, I was struggling to finish up my last n toughest assignment. Second, there's something wrong with my laptop charger. My laptop failed to on. So currently I can't access the internet unless I drag my lazy bump to the campus. Third, I need to rest my eyes from looking at the PC. Dah mcm mata Panda China. Uhuk!

Yesterday, as usual, it's reward time! Hehe. We went shop hopping like crazy. We visited all the fitting rooms and made a big time mess. Hehe. Bought 2 shirts for Eizwan n 1 long pant. Cute giler! Then bought few blouses for me. On my way home, I started to panic. Gave a quick call to Mr. Bank, got green light from him to spent. Hehe. Wife mithali. Dah spent baru tanya.

So what's new? Obama has been elected as President. Good. I like. Botak pakai spec ganti si kuat tidur. I don't like. US finally have their new direction. When is ours? :)

Oh lupa! Bila tgk balik video clip Eizwan kat bawah ni (the 2nd one), I notice he made the piggy sound. Aiyak! When I was pregnant with him, I like to make this piggy sound, "Krrrooohhh!!" every time I laugh. It was a really bad habit that seems so hard to avoid. Luckily Ezzy found it was kinda cute that time. Hehe. Perasan. Entah2 dalam hati, apakah ini?? Maybe it's just coincidence, but I find that most of the things that I did during my pregnancy, especially the disgusting ones, Eizwan is doing it right now. Adusss.. Serve me right.. Lesson learned. So babes, when u are pregnant, refrain yourself from cursing people (aku tak buatla ni..), laughing like a piggy, bad mouth about other people and etc. Cause u never know what is coming out from u!

27 days..

Fuh.. One more to go.. Break kejap.. Dah lama tak update blog.. These few days I really really miss my son.. Since he is looked after by my parents, I haven't have the chance to actually feel the feelings of being a mother. I don't know how long I could stand this. Hopefully Allah will continue giving me the miracle strength that I never thought I would have.

This is how we see each other everyday.. Pathetic right?

Luckily Eizwan is still small..

Eizwan's teman tidur.. Mr. Babuch..

It's ok.. Another 27 days to go.. I can't wait..

Hi..

Halluuu.. Firstly, sorry for the emotional entry. Hehe. It's that time of the month I guess. Women. Blame it on the hormones. ;) Anyway, thanx for all the advices. To babah dinie zikri, if I decide to saman, I'll definitely ring u, k? Starting this week I'll be drown with assignments and exams. I've bought my flight tickets. My last paper will be on the 26th November and the next day bye bye Adelaide. ;) Tp tak nak cerita apa2 pasal tu. Nanti jadi mcm last time. Touch wood! Okla babes.. Eventhough aku mcm menyampah sikit bila org ckp diri dia busy, tapi nampak gayanya dah terkena batang hidung sendiri kali ni. Aku dapat merasakan yg aku akan busy starting tomorrow. So maybe tak berkesempatan sgt nak update blog. Okla! Till then take care!

Siapa salah? Siapa betul?

Aku salah ke mereka salah? Aku betul ke mereka betul? Ke dua-dua salah? Ke dua-dua betul? Hmmm.. Manusia ni pelik. Ada yg hipokrit. Ada yg selfish. Ada yg bodoh. Ada yg pandai. Ada yg kiasu. Aku rasa aku bodoh. Bodoh kerana dari dulu smpai sekarang aku tak pandai menilai siapa kawan dan siapa haram jadah. Aku selalu fikirkan alasan utk orang kenapa mereka berperangai mcm tu. Maybe dia penat, sbb tu dia buat perangai mcm tu. Maybe dia byk kerja, sbb tu dia mcm haram jadah. Perkataan maybe tu mmg favourite word aku dari dulu. Tukang create excuses for other people's shit. Aku selalu fikir benda positive pasal orang. Kebaikan orang. Sometimes aku wonder, why should I? Life diorang, lantakla diorang nak melingkup pun. But, the sad truth is I can't. Aku susah nak marah orang and that's why some people like to take advantage of me. Tapi family aku tau, kalau sekali aku marah, segala benda melayang. Tumbuk orang pun bole. Manusia memang pelik. Orang yg baik hati selalu ditindas. Orang yg jahat mulut, ramai je kaki kipas yg bodoh nak ikut. Perasan tak? Sebab manusia takut ke? Hmmm.. Ezzy, mak aku and Alia, selalu advice aku untuk jadi selfish sikit. Tak payah fikir pasal orang lain. Buat je hal sendiri. Believe me, I'm trying. Memang itu la masalah aku dari dulu. Tapi itu ke jawapan utk kepelikan manusia ni? Semua orang jadi selfish? So kesimpulannya Jaja.. Be selfish. Be evil. Baru ada orang2 bodoh datang kipas. Panas jugak sekarang ni. Best jugak kalau ada orang kipaskan. Zaman sekarang ni susah nak cari kawan sejati. Semua berlumba nak jadi yg terbaik. No more sharing. No more I give u, u give me. Survival of the species. Species apa? Species hipo. Not hippopotamus but hypocrite. Manusia..

Jason Mraz

Selingan.. Balik M'sia hari tu dengar lagu ni mcm suka pulak.. :) So enjoy the clip!

p/s Baby! Memang confirm ni bukan Jason American Idol.. ;)

I'm Yours
by Jason Mraz

Hello

Hi babes.. I've just submitted my 1st major assignment. Fuh! I was damn relieved when I finally hit the 'SUBMIT' key. Luckily I had this assignment (alaaa.. assignment zoo tu!) to focus on for the last 2 days. At least my mind was fully occupied with it. So I didn't have much time to think about my sadness. Bless in disguise. ;) Another 3 to go. Gambatte Jaja! (ada ke orang wish goodluck kat diri sendiri? :)) I've missed a lot of other blog's entries. Need to do some catch up. Now I have one more stop. Effa has just started her own personal blog. My new 'tempat persinggahan'. ;) Best best..!

Raya..

Lagi 5 hari dah nak raya. Tapi rumah aku mcm belum start prepare apa2. This year semua org sibuk. Kalau tahun2 yang lepas, aku sorang je yang mcm budak kecik baru nak rasa raya. Aku la yang pergi beli pelita, pasang keliling rumah. Aku la yang heret mak aku pergi PKNS or Jalan TAR cari baju raya for the whole family, siap semua sama color. Aku la yang belikan mercun and bunga api utk adik2 aku main memekak kat luar smpai mak aku melatah2, then tak ingatla adik2 aku kena jerit dgn dia. Aku la yang akan make sure kuih raya semua cukup. Aku la yang set kan hari apa nak buat open house. Kenapa aku buat semua ni? Sebab aku tak nak the joy of celebrating Hari Raya tu hilang. Kenapa bila kita rasa diri kita dah matang kita tak bole jadi budak2 and celebrate raya mcm dulu2? Adakah kematangan menghalang kita utk menikmati keseronokan? Salah ke orang dewasa mcm kita nak celebrate raya like we used to when we were kids. Yang sedihnya aku dah jadi antara mereka2 yang "Alaa.. Raya je.." Serius bosan la orang2 mcm ni. Anti climax. Sour grape. Tapi nampaknya aku pun dah jadi mcm mereka2 ni. Bagi aku masa. Aku nak siapkan assignment yang berlambak ni. Then aku dah janji dgn adik aku yang bongsu (dia baca blog ni) nak buat kuih dgn dia. Then I'll get the pelita, baju raya and mercun. Biarla aku dah anak 8 pun (exaggerate la tu), cucu 19 ke, I'll try my very best to maintain the 'suasana' of Hari Raya. Ayah and mak aku cakap kalau tak puasa tak bole raya. Korang yang dah 'besar' ni tak puasa ke? Kenapa tak nak raya?